its been a very very long time since i last wrote. ive been always trying to make a new blog and leave this one but i always come back here. its like a haven for me already. a safe place to rant. well disguised from others that i can bitch about my life or/ and other's life. halhak. im back! i only came back here if i have something to write about.. i miss writing.. but now is not a good time since im running late for my night duty. so ill be back..again
Written by choiboy at 09:06 PM. Filed under random bits.
god is teasing me!!!! hopeful..hopeless..hopeful..hopeless.. hopeful..hopeless..hopeful and then hopeless! hays.. actually i dont care anymore. whatever! i just want it out of my mind!!
Written by choiboy at 08:19 PM.
just got home after meeting my college buds..it was quite uneventful as we were all already tired. most of were from am shift and one of us were still from malate. anyways, aside from that this day itself is quite uneventful..there were very few surgeries scheduled this day..some staff went on halfday offset..and i did something pathetic yet again..and hating myself for it. i think this is bad for ny health..i need a distractiob!! sometimes i think im better of hurt by someone..atleast i have a valid reason to be sad. unlike now..im being sad for a very pathetic reason..still im hopeless..damn? i need something to take my mind off it..or him!! i need to move on..let go and wake up the calk of reality!!!! whats bad with me i always expect something..but nothing happens..always! i never learn..and thats why im disturbed..sigh!
Written by choiboy at 10:24 PM. Filed under life rants.
Written by choiboy at 07:22 PM.
im fine alone, but i dont want to be alone
im happy,but i can be happier
i have a crush, but maybe i want love
Written by choiboy at 04:00 AM. Filed under random bits.